i can't trust my self
 

hello everybody, iam a new member in this forum and i like it very much...
so by the name of allah i start;
iam a girl of 20years old ; i tried to be better in my life but ...
iam a university student who study English language passing to 3rd year , i had faced many problems which have destroyed my personality and led me to not trust my self again especially in the emotional side ...
in reality i had lost the confidence of my parents because an assistant security in our university residing asked them to marry me but in real i was not happy as they thaught all i wanted is to remove him out of my life by the disagree of my parents
but the catastrophe is that man won't go away and he made for me many problems since iam now talking to him over my wish and iam afraid also from him and the most important thing is that he knows that i afraid of him
this problem leads me to loose my selfcontrol and also not to participate in the classroom
so please who can help me to improve my self again and to have a self confidence
please iam getting down
God bless you
thanks :(